It plays the same music
It draws the same scenery
It speaks the same dialogue
It drums the same beat
It follows the same drill

The difference is, I am no longer her
And thus, different consequences
When once is more than enough
Who bothers to think of the next time?

I know it by heart
I know it by hard
I can walk blindfolded
I can recite though I am deaf

I can blame the circumstances for a first time mistake
But I can only blame myself if the second time hurts

Perhaps I will never feel it
Because perhaps, I am no longer her

A Song by Zain Bhikha
Allah Knows

When you feel all alone in this world
And there's nobody to count your tears
Just remember, no matter where you are
Allah knows Allah knows

When you carrying a monster load
And you wonder how far you can go
With every step on that road that you take
Allah knows Allah knows

No matter what, inside or out
There's one thing of which there's no doubt
Allah knows Allah knows
And whatever lies in the heavens and the earth
Every star in this whole universe
Allah knows Allah knows

When you find that special someone
Feel your whole life has barely begun
You can walk on the moon, shout it to everyone
Allah knows Allah knows

When you gaze with love in your eyes
Catch a glimpse of paradise
And you see your child take the first breath of life
Allah knows Allah knows

When you lose someone close to your heart
See your whole world fall apart
And you try to go on but it seems so hard
Allah knows Allah knows

These are the unspoken words
Words that are in the head all the time
But cannot find their ways out to form a complete line
These are the horrid tales
Tales that are at everyone's tongue
But are quite hard to believe
These are the rasping voices
Voices that are incredibly sobbing
But can only be heard if you don't seek
These are the tears
Tears that linger only on the eyes of the beholder
But can never fall as they are too draining

These are the deafening silence
No words, no plausible tales, no blissful voices
But the noises are there
Deafening

Though the road is long, the journey is longer
Though the mind is wise, the thought is wiser
Surely, he who does not plan to lose the battle
Does not know if he would win either
But one thing for sure
One step at a time
Silencing the deafening