There has been moment in life when we hit rock bottom..Suffocated in the loud silence and drowned in sea of possibilities..We live with decisions that we made albeit our reluctance to admit them when things go the opposite ways of our plan..

There also has been time when we failed people who matter to us..Struggled to rise to the occasions and jaded to climb up the raised bar..we wonder if we really the best person to do those things or we were here because others refused to do them anyway..

There has been instance when our ticking clock suddenly stopped while others moved so fast, they are almost invisible..invincible..while we are the last in the rat race and the later birds that have no worms..Maybe somewhere, somehow, something needs repairing..

There has been occasions when we are stuck in a puzzling maze...one way in, one way out but so many confusing ways with limited strike of luck..re-routed to square one every time we met that endless dead ends..

We want to blame this concrete jungle for its lack of oxygen for us to breathe
We want to shout at people to stop pushing us over the limit
We want to hang on to others to stop leaving us wandering
We want to burn the walls that are blocking our sole exit
We want to rage and break
We want to torch the white flag but dont want to fight anymore

We dont demand much
We just want to be strong enough to cry
And strong enough to survive


it's my life
by Bon Jovi

This ain't a song for the broken-hearted
No silent prayer for the faith-departed
I ain't gonna be just a face in the crowd
You're gonna hear my voice
When I shout it out loud

It's my life
It's now or never
I ain't gonna live forever
I just want to live while I'm alive
It's my life
My heart is like an open highway
Like Frankie said
I did it my way
I just wanna live while I'm alive
It's my life

This is for the ones who stood their ground
For Tommy and Gina who never backed down
Tomorrow's getting harder make no mistake
Luck ain't even lucky
Got to make your own breaks

Better stand tall when they're calling you out
Don't bend, don't break, hell, don't back down

This life is nothing but a constant battle. Each day is a continuous struggle and we have no choice but to live life for the moment.

I am not an exception. Through challenges in life, I hope I grow up and learnt my lesson well, without repeating the same mistake. Though it is almost impossible, and frustration claims me whenever guilt overwhelms me, I cannot help but feel hurt by my own lack of will.

This life of mine, I pray to Him for guidance. Though I am not the best of His servant, I know there is no better guidance than from Him. Though there are moments when I wish I could disappear for a moment and fly high, it is never coming true. Running from responsibility is a complete cowardice and I hope I will never do that. Everyday things get harder and when an empty house greets me, I wonder what would the end await me?

Broken heart is bad enough, but broken spirit is worse. This life is nothing but a constant battle and I cannot help but wonder if I am noble enough to call myself a fighter.

Every night you cry yourself to sleep

Thinking 'Why does this happen to me?'

Why does every moment have to be so hard?

Hard to believe that….

It's not over tonight

Just give me one more chance to make it right

I may not make it through the night

I wont go home without you