“...when I was little...I was out riding my brand-new blue
bicycle...when I decided to see how far I could keep going...without looking
back even once”
This quote comes from an anime
that I watched years back. Every time the quote came out, it always gets me
thinking. Even now, it still rings in my head. The anime’s interpretation is
open for discussion. I guess, only the creator knows best. But for me, though I
lack the cycling experience, I always relate it to how far would I go forward without looking back on the past. Moving
on, moving forwards.
The reasons I like the quote
maybe because it reminds me not to linger much on the tortured past. Or it reminds
me that whatever I am doing now will be in past tense in mere seconds. Or it
reminds me the past is always right behind me, looming around. Or it reminds me
that the past is what mold me today. Or it questions me why should I run away
from the past. Or it measures my persistence, that one thing I always lack.
I hate it when this sentimental
mode struck me. It makes me mellow.
“You choose to give up or make an effort. There are only these two
choices for humans to choose from.”
Life is a constant struggle. But as
a Muslim, we know that this life of ours is already planned by Him in the most
beautiful way, no matter how awful we thing it is. Because we are only human
and He is The All Knowing. It is up to us to be thankful and repent for all the
sins that we intentionally or unintentionally convicted.
Every day the sun rises and sets.
We have no choice but to move on. No matter what the past holds, regardless of
my shattering heart, despite of my teary eyes and even with these heavy and wobbly
steps of mine, every day is a new day. Another chance to improve myself, another
chance to run towards my dreams, another chance to repent and another chance to
find myself amidst of this crazy world. Before it is too late, before I am
awaken to a different world.
“But you should go, if that’s
what you need to do to get over it. You should go and cry your heart out.”
An excerpt from a song says…
You, that is like the blue sky,
Suddenly pours rain
And when my body gets wet from this rain
I’ll hide the flowing tears
