Saturday, January 10, 2009

It is still early to talk about New Year. Be it in Islamic calendar or Gregorian calendar, the very first days of both years were just around the corner. To add to the list, the Chinese will also be celebrating their new Ox year in few weeks. Yes, we have more reasons to talk about New Year.

It is expected of us to talk about new resolution during these days, regardless we have one or a few new ones, or a slightly different version of last's. And why not? New year has always been associated with new hope, another chance of betterment and some moment of silence for self-reflection.

Looking back, there is nothing I can do to change whatever had occurred, no matter how much I want it. Sometimes, I let myself wonder to the 'what ifs' world just to entertain myself. Pathetic, yes! And to tell you the truth, eventually, at the end of my 'what ifs' imagination, I always come back to the same conclusion-Nothing better than the yesterdays' reality. Another proof of His mighty planning.

At present, I am always an optimistic person as I believe I am, though I am not sure what challenges I have at the moment. Most of the time, during my catch-up sessions with my friends, I have nothing much to tell. Obviously some of them have reached different kind of phases in their life- a girlfriend, a fiancee, a wife, a mother, a graduate, a new employee, a certified-professional-to-be etc. thus, have different excitement in their life. So, I prefer to listen to those new stories of theirs and join in the conversation every now and then. It is a good feeling to realize that how many years have passed and we have been friends for more than, or almost, a decade. And I believe I don't want it to stop any time soon, and perhaps ever, no matter if nothing-much-to-tell stories of mine are the only version I have.

How about the future? Nobody can predict what will and will not happen and I am no exception. Nevertheless, I am an optimist as I believe I am. And though I never know what in store with every eye blink, or shorter, I will look everyday, and maybe every second, as another new hope, another chance of betterment and some moment of silence for self-reflection. No, I will not wait for the New Year to knock on my door to do those.

Owh, is that my New Year resolution?!

You Raise Me Up by Josh Groban

When I am down and, oh my soul, so weary;
When troubles come and my heart burdened be;
Then, I am still and wait here in the silence,
Until you come and sit awhile with me.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up to more than I can be.

There is no life no life without its hunger;
Each restless heart beats so imperfectly;
But when you come and I am filled with wonder,
Sometimes, I think I glimpse eternity.