i hv a question to ask-wat is love and wat is trust?

and that question leads to this one-can we love someone we dont trust?

or if i can re-phrase the question-can an absence of trust build up love?

and so i wonder-which one comes first, love then trust?

i mean-we can start to trust someone, then love will come in, rite?

but something bothers me-how come u still love someone when trust started to die?

so, the first question comes back haunting me-wat is love and wat is trust?

and that question leads to this one-wat happen if both are shattered glass?

or if i can re-phrase the question-wat happen if the things that shattered u are love and trust?

and so i wonder-how to start over?

i mean-we can really patch up broken love and betrayed trust,huh?

but something bothers me more-how to live with such tragedy?

so tell me, wat is love and wat is trust?

the regular visitors will realize it..and being the writer herself, i'm surely realize that this blog is almost dead..yeah, being a student, without a doubt, giving u more time to do a lot of things easily..who would ever thought..i always consider my uni years are going to be the busiest moments of my life..but, surprise, surprise! uni years are surreal..busy, of course! but busiest, they are surely not..

now, working life is a different ballroom altogether..it re-define the word 'busy', 'priority', 'headache', 'due date' , to name a few..it re-configure your body system and your human relation..

different environments re-define and re-configure our life..
or do they?

a plant is still a plant eventho it is found on land or in water..the only thing that differs is the mechanism to survive in different environment..and a plant is still a plant, regardless where you find it..

meaning? meaning, they said i should write things straight to the point, without going around the bush..

If you're lost, you can look and you will find me,
Time after time
If you fall I will catch you, I will be waiting,
Time after time

it's a promise i made and a promise to keep
if i fail it once, persuade me to keep on trying
don't give up on me
i want to be there for you and be everywhere for you
don't give up on me as i'm still trying
to be the best for you n me

It has been awhile, quite awhile since the last time I update this blog. If this blog is a house, I bet it will be filled with spider webs everywhere, dusty and has that eerie air surrounding it.

Well, luckily, this aint a house. And this blog is still running, though it might not be as active as before. This is what happened when the luxury of internet is ripped from you. But, no worries, it is not completely gone. All I need to do is to exert more effort and money to crawl to the cyber café where quite a number of students gather to enjoy killing people in their favorite cyber game. And at times I really put my patience to the limit when the internet connection is oddly slow and the speaker is blaring with some hideous songs.

Well, for better or worse, to get connected is all that matters.

At this moment of time, I am still unemployed and spent most of my precious time at home, playing the housekeeper role. Nevertheless, I put my cooking skill aside since it is hardly required around here. At times, it is odd to think that since I reached 13, this is the longest time I ever spent at home. Maybe this is the pay-back time.
But my life now is not all bleak and bland. Despite the fact that I am no longer valid to get some allowance from our national oil and gas company, I am doing alright.

So, do not worry about me. Now, I have to go though I have lots more to write. I guess I will come back later.