I am a middle child who is caught in the middle
Luckily I am not a middle age person or it might be a mid-life crisis all together

I prefer to be outside the circle as the circumstances maybe circulated
Hopefully I am not encircled by them or I will feel enclosed and keep on closing

I am speechless to explain the so-called unspeakable
Especially when the spoken words are renditions

I am an escapee who is trying to escape this scoop
Expectantly I am no scapegoat to those who is after someone’s throat

I am optimist who opts for optimization
Hopefully opportunity is no optical illusion

I am feeling a bit flattened after a fall
Possibly when I fall, I fall hard and full of feelings

I am not heart broken though my heart ache
Those heartless human only hardens me as humanely as possible

I am still standing like a statue amidst a stampede
Perhaps the reason I stood steady is because I lack sanity

I am who I am
I have played demon and angel
I have broken down and built up
I have drown and emerged
I have gave up and kept on
I have gone full cycle but I am yet to reach my destination

If it is the journey that really counts
Then I will give my flesh and skin for you to scar
Mark my word but don't touch my heart

Good Riddance (Time of Your Life)
by Green Day

Another turning point, a fork stuck in the road
Time grabs you by the wrist, directs you where to go
So, make the best of this test and don't ask why
It's not a question but a lesson learned in time
It's something unpredictable but, in the end, is right
I hope you had the time of your life

So, take the photographs and still-frames in your mind
Hang it on a shelf in good health and good time
Tattoos of memories and dead skin on trial
For what it's worth, it was worth all the while
It's something unpredictable but, in the end, is right
I hope you had the time of your life

Aku berlari mencari cita
Aku berhati-hati mencari cinta
Aku mendaki menakluk punca

Ceritakan padaku
Ada apa pada seribu kisah
Hingga tiada kata mampu menterjemah
Hingga mata berkaca. Merah. Basah.
Terlalu asyik mengkaji tanah
Sampaikan semut tak lagi sebesar zarah

Tiada kisah. Cuma sejarah
Aku tahu arah. Tidak mengalah
Cuma tak kuasa lagi aku mengejar pelangi
Meskipun datang selepas hujan
Lebih rela aku basah dari ku kejar ilusi mentah-mentah
Lebih baik demam dari tergamam melihat harapan berbalam.
Kelam. Pejam. Kejam.

Mengapa mahu malam terus-terusan
Subuh tetap datang. Embun pagi akan tetap hilang
Mengapa mahu malam panjang-panjangan
Bagaikan musim sejuk di kutub dunia
Gelap. Dingin. Sunyi. Apakah yang ada? Tiada.

Malamku merenung langit
Luka-luka hidupku dikering angin dingin
Apalah ada pada siang? Desir angin itu jua satu-satunya muzik

Mengapa seperti pesimis?

Tidak pesimis tapi praktik.

Praktikkah berlari mengejar cita, mencari cinta dan menakluk punca dalam malam gelap-gelita?

Gelapkah malam? Ada bulan bintang

Tapi siang jauh lebih terang. Ada suria. Nampak segala

Nampak segala. Makin keliru. Jalan buntu.

Nampakkah aku? Aku bersamamu.
Rebahkan kelirumu dibahuku.
Keluar dari malam. Padamu kuberikan siang.

Kau mahu berlari mencari cita? aku bersamamu setiap batu
Kau berhati-hati mencari cinta? aku berhati-hati menyinta
Kau mendaki menakluk punca? aku jatuh bangun sehingga ke puncak
Jangan pergi. Aku disini.

Berhenti menangis. Ucapkan selamat tinggal malam.
Padamu kuberi siang. Selamat siang!

Siapa kamu? Jangan berjanji. Aku benci.

Tidak berjanji tapi kata-kata yang ada saksi.
Satu peluang. Beribu siang.

Aku tak berjanji. Tapi kurindu jua siang ku...


Say by John Mayer

Take all of your wasted honor.
Every little past frustration.
Take all of your so called problems,
Better put 'em in quotations.
Say what you need to say

Walking like a one man army,
Fighting with the shadows in your head.
Living up the same old moment
Knowing you'd be better off instead
If you could only...Say what you need to say

Have no fear for giving in.
Have no fear for giving over.
You better know that in the end
It's better to say too much, than never to say what you need to say again.
Even if your hands are shaking,
And your faith is broken.
Even as the eyes are closing,
Do it with a heart wide open.

Say what you need to say

My constant outstations are my holidays paid by my employer
My towering in-coming documents are my table origami
My colorful post-it-notes are my favorite collage
My demanding work is a tool towards global champion, albeit reluctantly
My occasional headache is a sign that I am indeed thinking
My long, daily walk to the LRT station is my ever forgotten exercise
My long overdue social life is a fortress against social illness and such
My small, cluttered room is a haven without boundary
My pain-inducing shoes are main reasons for my shopping spree
My busy neighborhood gives me security at night
My everyday visits to mamak stalls are my effort on efficient time-management and economic inducement project
My need to pack, unpack and re-pack again and move in to a new place is a breath of new life
My unexpected/expected calls from known/unknown people are interludes to my humdrum predictable/unpredictable life

Yup, we have to look on the bright side of life
But sometimes the light is so bright that I just have to close my eyes
Letting the blowing wind touches my face, drying my tears


The Rose
by Westlife

some say love it is a river
that drowns the tender reed.
some say love it is a razor
that leaves your soul to bleed.

some say love it is a hunger
an endless, aching need
i say love it is a flower,
and you it's only seed.

it's the heart afraid of breaking
that never learns to dance
it's the dream afraid of waking
that never takes the chance

it's the one who won't be taken,
who cannot seem to give
and the soul afraid of dying
that never learns to live.

when the night has been too lonely
and the road has been too long.
and you think that love is only
for the lucky and the strong.

just remember in the winter
far beneath the bitter snow
lies the seed that with the sun's love,
in the spring, becomes the rose.